Thinking I am just gonna cancel my birthday/weight loss party. Not sure what I was thinking when I came up with the idea. I think it would have been fun, but now it just looks like an exercise of over endulgance. When I first came up with the idea I thought it would be fun to plan and execute a party and I thought it would be the motivation I needed to finish out my year of weight loss. But as time gets closer and I am forced to make plans, the evening the way I wish I could do it is gonna take more time/effort/resources than I am willing to sacrifice on behalf of my family.
I think it is important to have goals, dreams, and rewards when you are trying to loose weight. I thought a party would be a good motivating reward, and I think it was. It occupied my mind for a good bit of time. I have spent hours while running deciding what I was gonna do and how to make it fun, I actually think it might have been an amusing evening. But my recent time I spent running I been thinking through the party and the ramifications of continuing to plan. With everything our family already has scheduled and all the 'pots' we have on our stove. We don't need something else taking up time. So the party has to go.