one ton gorilla

Sometimes but not often I do what is right. Tonight was one of those times. Ever since our peer ministry chose the name Aquiline I have felt a nudge in my heart to speak about it. [Aquiline--means eagle like. And the supporting bible verse is Is. 40:30-31] So a month ago I started writing out my lesson, but due to sickness, interruptions, The Passion Movie, & other speakers I have been lazy in getting around to teaching. Finally on Sunday I told Ray & Brian that I would be teaching tonight. And I did. I have no idea how I was perceived and if my presentation was any good. But after I was done I just felt right about life. I felt used by God. Don't know how to explain it, but I felt like I spoke and did what I felt prompted to do and when I was done, I felt like God said thanks you did what I wanted. It is a good feeling that I wish I had more often. On a side note: not sure how pastors deal with speaking every week to a few hundred. For me it is a hard job to look into the faces of 50 kids and speak much less their parents. I really wonder what i look like sitting in my chair on a Sunday Morning. Do I roll my eyes, pick my nose, furrow my brow, talk to the person next to me? I wonder how often I am listening? I am often bothered by distractions from people around me. [the kid for lack of a tissue that wipes his nose on his shirt, the girl who write in her journal, the woman who coughs, the man whispers to his wife] I don't know how a speaker can do it with a few hundred distractions. It must be the by grace of God. So come Sunday I hope to be more conscious about the message I am sending back to the speaker. My goal is to be positive. I think that is what I would want.